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i have a new screen name it's thebeat_goeson comment on the journal to bee added
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| shoot me now! |
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ok soo yeah thursday my brothers mother and sister came down... omg! i want to kill someone no joke! his mother and sooo crazy... well everynight since wednsday franco has been comming over and hanging out till like 1 1:30 at night it's been cool and nothing has happened which is a good thing because i think after Greg i am never doing that again... soo yeah anyways... he's with jen and i'm happy for him i havn't seen him since ummm... thursday night but i guess it's all good... well yeah! ummm... gina had he baby thee other day... i would of gone and seen her today in the hospital but i got sick this morning the chicken didn't agree with my stomach and well yeah i had a date with the toilet... lol... but i went to the mall had and incounter with jen (different one now) and franco said i had said something about her which i didn't then i comfronted him about it and i called him something and i like started crying because i feelt bad but what ever.... then i went and said sorry... i felt really bad then we straighten everything out with jen and him and yeah i think everthing is ok... lol... soo yeah besides from alot of stupid shit i am ok! lol... and i will be... oh yeaeh anyways love stinks and thats that! haha... Whats done is done FRANCO! hehe... well anyways i am going to go i have to go to church tomorrow and i am going to die!
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[06 Apr 2004|12:42am] |
ok soo saturday sucked which i think i already stressed... and ummm yeah sunday went to sawgrass mall with wendy and ate a rainforest cafe... then went to her house and watched guard taps and found mark on one of the tapes and watched Taravella when they were in world i think and then went out with john GREG ed andrew blake and wendy... we went to wendy's what else is new then just drove around listening to music and then Brittany Spears came on and wendy and i SANG! hehe... and then they droped my off and then i went inside and thought of... well u know who! lol... and then topday i just clean my room becasue Healen and Kelly are comming thursday and they are staying my room and well yeah kelly and wendy and i are going to have alot of fun when they come down... and well yeah... tomorrow i am going to mall to see julian hehe... and well yeah hopefully see GREG and well yeah... he is soo sweet... he thinks about me! lol... well anyways... life is grand again... i went a full day smiling... hehe! and well yeah! anyways... i love my friends... and i am really glad i have them... oh yeah don't let me forget to call lisa and see if we can meet uip soo i can give her her gift... i got her something for gradiation and then end of the year or maybe i'll give it to her when we get back to school... well anyways... let me go and talk to peeps... bye xoxoxo muah!
i still hate u lisa... hehe... have fun at WGI and i am proud of u! hehe...
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[30 Mar 2004|11:14pm] |
dude these visons need to go away they are making my heart hut again... i had another attack and well that aree starting to come back again... i had a small one in the mall on saturday with kd and well yeah i had one last night but not as bad and then just now this one was really bad but luckly i was in the safty of my room... lol... well anyways... umm next week i am supposed to give back my heart monitor bad thing is that i havn't transmitted anything and also because i haven't be ablee to get batteries for it and the last good one i got was on it and then is got erased... and also i havn't been wearing it... it really gets in the way of life and i know i should wear it but what ever... well anyways... i should really get to sleep haha... but yeah... anyways he is on and well not talking but i guess it's all good... i really don't want to talk because i know i will just screw things up that is y i hate talking online because i ruin evereything online but when i am in person everything goes perfect and well yeah anyways i really don't want to go to school tomorrow and deal with anyone... haha... well yeah... i really need to become cherry and happy ashley again and fast i hate being this way... well anyways... i'll talk to u later... bye xoxoxoxo muah!
ASHEE
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[30 Mar 2004|09:49pm] |
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i am slowly slippin back into that same placee i got out of a long time ago... i don't know it's just sooo hard to climb back up when u just fallin... and it's even harder to get back up when u r still falling... i had a grand weekend... but yet i still feel empty... i don't know i started talking to this guy and he's really great but like i don't know u know... i hate just sitting and wondering if it's going to work and i shouldn't think because every time i think i get in trouble... i should just go with the flow... i was sitting here and thinking my way use to be if i am not going out with them don't do anything but that kinda was broken when i was in 8th grade and i was going out with kyle we did things i never even thought of... and we weren't even "going out" then came franco and i kissed him befor i "went out" with him then greg and well yeah souds childish but i guess it's growing up but yet i am still to little to do anything... i won't like i am young and i think i'm ready but i'm not... but then again i am... but who... where... and when come into mind... then no! never not me... lol... wow i'm thinking again i should stop... i am going to stop making it friends only becasue drill season is almost over and i really won't say anything now... because i love drill... but yeah anyways... he a great person but is he a great boyfriend? he's a great listener but is he a great talker? he's a great kisser but is he a great lover? i wish i could see him i hate talking to people online i'ed rather talk to a person face to face then on the phone or online... (oh yeah i am like not a phone person) but yeah... i've always beeen the girl to get the kiss then get screwed over... and it's always and accedent... is that what i am an accedent? i hate it when people come up to me and say my fatherr and i look alike because i really don't see it... really and then they try to say i look like my mother.... HA! Fat chance... just don't see it i'm sorry... and like i am not like anyone in my family... hell are they even my family... they never say anything good to me besides mia... i told her about me trying to kill my self and she had to pull over because she was crying to hard and i felt soo bad but i didn't even tear up... i was like stone no nothing... no feeling no emotions no movement no nothing... and thats when is all started i slowly started falling at that point then i started to think about the weekend and how i could of made it better and how i want to make my spring break unforgeteable... i am not going to be home... it's going to be me and wendy getting to trouble... i am going to do evereything and anything i want to do... i don't care... anymore... we are all going to die! but what ever anyways... i just really hope everything works out between the guy and me... i really don't want anything seriouse.... hell what the fuck am i saying... i will be lying to my self by saying that... i really do want a seriouse relationgship but not one that startes to fast i want to take it nice and slow... day by day... and make it last... no joke... thats what i would like for once... if someone is look out for me up there... damn i really miss jason... i want to go to his grave sometimes during spring break maybe i'll sucker someone into taking me... haha... well anyways... ummm yeah... like i said i really want to be happy and i try my hardest but i just can't come to it... dude... it's soo hard i just want to slip away one day... and maybe even never come back....
well anyways friday is out last friday befor championships and i think on saturday i am going to cry... like no joke... and i think that on friday jakel and ed are comming and hopefully john and greg will come... and maybe jimmy... lol... well anyways... let me go i am going to go to bed early... haha... me bed early... thats and oxymorone!
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[29 Mar 2004|10:52pm] |
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Pictures from wendy's journal... night at the mall... then my house...
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thank u wendy for i pics i stole them from u but i love me
I was soo happy i got this week end with my friends... i needed it... and i found someone i really like that can either be a really good friend or more... and i found a best friend... and a new friend and... a guy thats really like me... which i never thought i would bee able to do... and it's perfect he's with my best friend... life is really grand latly... just please do not ruin it please... i beg of u... thank u...
well i was sitting on the lou and i was ready my book befor i jumped into the shower and i had a vision and i remember having this dream in tampa befor i started reading a great and terrible beauty by Libba Bray...and exactly wat she decribed in the book was wat i dreamed of... a lot of things have been scaring me... like what i've been seeing and what has been happening... well yeah... anyways... let me go and finish my book... talk to u later... bye xoxoxo muah!
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Friends ONLY.... Comment to be added...
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| me... Really Read This EVERYONE! |
[20 Feb 2004|10:51pm] |
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ok soo 2 anti-biotics (hehe) isn't enoght i have to be on 5... lol... and umm chest hurtting really bad and breathing ever worst... i don't know if i will make it to march 1st or what ever too see the doctor and get everything done with... i'm really scared... no joke... it's hard to life like this not knowing if ur breathing will get easier or harder... but yeah... saw terrence today... i missed him sooo much... i like brighten up my day/night.... he is soo funny... well i can't find my halls and my throght out of no were started to hurt meh! (hehehe katie) Andd i cant standeded my nose... haha... and yeah today was alot of fun...s pnt it with Katie and Dani at the mall... Dani might be annoying sometimes (love yeah babes) but she great... and sweet and Katie to...we had fun and i am glad i spent today with them...well anyways... i have to go to bed... talk to u later...
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| Holy shit.... funni shit.... |
[19 Feb 2004|10:46pm] |
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Middle School Assistant Principal Under Investigation
School Official Relieved Of Duty, Reassigned
NBC 6 News Team
POSTED: 5:45 pm EST February 19, 2004
UPDATED: 6:59 pm EST February 19, 2004
CORAL SPRINGS, Fla. -- An assistant principal at a Coral Springs middle school was under investigation Thursday amid allegations he slammed a 14-year-old student against a wall.
The alleged incident happened Tuesday inside Ramblewood Middle School on the 8000 block of West Atlantic Boulevard this week.
Reports say the seventh-grade student had a split lip and injuries to his head. He reportedly spent one night in an area hospital following the incident but was reportedly doing fine Thursday.
The school board would not comment on the allegations, nor would Coral Springs police, except to confirm that an investigation is ongoing. NBC 6 also confirmed that the investigation would be turned over to the state attorney's office, which will determine whether charges will be filed.
The assistant principal, Adam Sadow, has been relieved of his duties and reassigned, the school confirmed.
What the fuck is this world comming to... i knew something was up with this man when i almost knocked out preston in the middle of lunch and then he told me i could do it after isted of here... what an ass... i hated him... what an ass... and yeah that school is known for teachers and peeps getting investigated...what ever...
practice went ok except my dizzy spells got worse and well yeah... i kinda left my body for a few min when i was laying on the floor and i could of swarn i saw neo from matrix... yet again yeah!... i am a rude person now... but what ever...i hate hypocrits... (did i spell that right?) lol... anyways... i don't know if i am going to go to the movies with minka i think i am going to go buy a push up bra...lol..don't ask... and then go in and see Conney at work and Jen and get a soup and then go to my moms work and fall asleep in the extra spa room... that they don't use anymore...
but anyways i have to get to bed now because i am really tired and ready to die... my chest hurts my head hurts and everything else... and i am not ok calvin... i'm scared...
Heart doctor on March 1st SCARRY!
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| which boy? |
[19 Feb 2004|03:12pm] |
Boy Next Door - Your ideal guy is the brotherly and
huggable boy next door. He's always around,
knows you better than anyone, and loves to
cuddle. He's not neccessarily attractive to
most, but something about him makes him
charming and adorable in your eyes.
Turn ons: One word - cute. He gets you teddy bears
and kisses your forehead, loves hand holding
and telling you that he loves you.
Turn offs: He'll screw up somewhere down the line
- but we all make mistakes. Forgive him,
because all he can do is learn from it and love
you all the more!
What is your ideal type of guy? (With Pictures)
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hahaha... i think that is sooo funny... hahaha... ask me y and u will find out!
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[18 Feb 2004|09:01pm] |
i need ice cream... haha luara....
<3
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[18 Feb 2004|08:37pm] |
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ok i did cut my hair but no that short and i can't becasue of drill i really got it fixed soo yeah... it looks great but my mom is not done with it... she still has to angle it soo yeah... went to the mall say KD and her mom... it's a shame that we are not friends anymore i kinda miss her but i can't believe should would say some really means things... the canadian... but what ever... well yeah her mom saw me and said hi and i said hi back u know not thinking anything of it then as i walked away i could just hear KD say "mom i'm not friends with her anymore" and then i just broke down... i've been doing that alot latly... i had another one of my break downs last night i don't know what is wromg with me... i don't get it anymore... i use to not be able to stop my wakkyness and i wanted to change but know that i have it's really hard to be wakky... alot of downers no one has really noticed but yeah...like alot of people say u don't want to go to another state and start all over but i do... but really if only one person could come with me and that would be jess... well yeah... i hate my brother and my sister... they always make me feel like shit and always put me down... but what ever i don't care anymore... i really want to get as far away from here as i can... really... no joke i want to go to like boarding school or something...
soo yeah march 1st heart doctor and well yeah... I saw franni today she is a nurse at my doctors office and i told her about how i almost passed out on saturday and she started to yell at me because the doctor told me to take it easy this week end and i didn't soo now she said to not to do drill and i laughed in her face... it was funny... well anyways right now i am talking to monika and making plans to go to the movies this friday... i miss her soo much and gooch imed me... what ever tlak to u later... bye xoxoxox muah!
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ok soo i just read something and it made me think... i miss laura courtny (who i also saw in win dickme friday and i only said hi to her which i wanted to kick my self in the ass for) and jackie and jackie and well i see Kristine all the time but still... i miss all of then... i remember when i met them at ice skating... i think befor jackie leave we should get everyone togeather and go back to the ice skating rink one last time... and well yeah...i can't cry... omg! y am i crying probably because wheni was with them i was the most happy... and our song was Faith and well yeah... i see them once and a while at PIS but not that much anymore :(and soo yeah! anyways let me go and cry... bye
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[16 Feb 2004|01:47pm] |
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hey i', home now! yeah!sooo yeah ok. the ride up to tampa was awsome and i love talking with my sisters. then got to tampa and found out who i was in a room with and it was with ofcours Steph Brittany and Jenn. The ramblewood girls and well yeah that was alot of fun stupid things happened but ti's all good. they are better now and everyone loves eachother. ummm yeah saturday we got 4th overall i think and went to finals... thats where it sucked first off the day started off really bad got yelled at for a joke that everone took weriously i was told it was not team work and that everyone was stressing about who was going to do their hair... and it was not going to be me sooo everyone was stressing and i was choped liver and me doing everyones hair and forgetting all my stuff was not stressful for me but what ever...sooo then we did practice and that was bad because eveyone kept on getting bitten my ants and we were not getting things... then we went into warm ups and the women was stressing me out becasue se kept on yelling at us and that we could do anything then we could count out loud and she kept on interoupting us and we ddn't get wht we needed in and well yeah. then this is were it all falls apart. sooo we were told we had like 8-10 mins soo only like 2 went by and the doors open and we were told that our floor and props were already out there and we were pushed out and i went out because everyone was yelling at us to get out soo i started to walk out and i was alone and i look behind we and no one was there then i tured around and heather goes running past me and then i started to run and i was not ready and it was the worst run through i have ever had and calvin and everyone one said i was great and i almost fell it really suck but anyways we got 6th which was ok i guess and we beat out olypic hights in movement which i really weird becasue well yeah!... lol... anyways we got 6th Douglas got 1st WOOHOO! Medea got 1st and alience got 4th :( sorry eddie baby! and ummm of course Pride of Cicinatie got 1st i love their show it was side show it was really good.... soo yeah... ummm no practice tonight we have off but we have it thrusday and a show on saturday which we really hve to do good and i am going to perfoem i promise.... lol... umm yeah i am really tired i think i am going to go sleep now! or help my mom with dinner either one works for me! talk to u later love Ya'll!
ASHEE!
a.k.a HINKLE!
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[11 Feb 2004|10:24pm] |
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ok soo today went really well besides all my teachers in my 1st-5th hour think i am depressed because latly i have been like 1st hour to 5th i hate it then i get to 6th and i am happy and then 7th hour and i am over joyed... no joke i know i wrote alot about hating guard but i am really happy i stayed on it because i am sooo comfertable with them i am starting to act my self around them and i am sooo glad for that.... they really are like my sisters. we get into fits like sister we share cloths like sisters and make up and everything else it's so cool. i can't wait till i get to tampa because i am rooming with steph and 2 other kool people and i can't wait... and well Medea and Allience ar going to tampa which is really kool... i get to see Justine Eddie Katie O and Christine. and no matter what katie o would have gone because of us but yeah! i can't wait... omg! and yeah. today i went to the rablewood practice don't get me started on that one... but yeah they are getting better and i am glad to see that i can't wait till next year though they are going to be really good and then the year after that too! soo yeah ummmm. tomorrow i have to go to my moms shope to get my fake hair put in then i have to go to practice and see if it will stay in then i have to go home take a shower and pack somemore then ummm... learn how to get my hair then go to bed and then get up go to school bringing all my stuff to school (i'm not going home) then practice and then leave for TAMPA! OH YEAH! what now what now! hehehehehe.... well anyways let me go do some stuff to get ready for tampa... i'll talk to u guys when i get home which will probably be sunday night and then monday there is no school and well yeah! sleep sleep sleep!
oh yeah heather said something that was sooooo true anyone thats knows her go and read her journal about us performing and everything i l;ike posted like 20 million times becasue i was really borde and i love heather! and stphanie and jenn and jenn and lisa and brittany and katie and katie and brandy and cheryl and everyone else on guard... they are my sisters and my family and maybe next year we will have my brother there... ( I LOVE U EDDIE)
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[10 Feb 2004|04:01pm] |
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... Fat girls need love to! lol... i had a lot of fun today like i have been latly...
i guess latly i have been depressed or not myself becasue i had it in my mind that because i am in high school i can't be my self... weird and wacky and GOOFY soo here i am! beck and ready to scare people make people laugh and maybe even make them better about them selfs... well back to today!
SOfirst hour didn't go well because i left my project at home but then came 2nd hour and Mason was sitting there telling everyone that everyone says that he looks like SEan Paul and i sat there and laughed and he said "well ur ugly to" and i said i don't need i tell me i am ugly i know i am ugly and then i said "u look nothing like sean pual he is hot and ur a dirty mexican" and he's like ur ugly and i said to him again i don't need u tell me that i am ugly i think i know i am... and then Brittany was across from me and she' like "ur not ugly" and i said "awww thank u" she's the greatest.... she is really kool... i see her at pis once and a while... well 3rd hyour went well too. wrote really stupid things on my direction paper that i was going to hand out in 7th hour for everyone to come over and well. talk to Branana and he came to me and he said "ur moms my teacher" i was funny how he said it soo yeah... no 4 the fifth hour watch a movie and took notes. 6th hour did a work sheet and got a new nick name cat...
well everyone is here got to go talk to u later
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[08 Feb 2004|10:40pm] |
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does practice really make perrfect... that is the big saying. they all say no one is really perfeect yet me sit there and say my body can be perfect if i do this or my hair could be pefect if i could get it like this... if god wanted it perefect he would of done in the first place. and also y is it that when i am soo happy and really to flot to the sky andi could really say if i died tomorrow i would die happy everyone around me is miserable?... it's fuuny. to thoees of u that are ehaving a hard time i am here to talk. and my best advise to do if u really can't talk to anyone is to either take a nicee journal and go sit outside (it is beutiful out) and write do nothing but write and think... it really helps or listen to what is going on around u the best place to do that is at a park... mainly Orchid Park it is soo beutiful there. or when u are home alone put on the music real loud and dance around ur house the a balet dancer. it works. I was told that.
but yeah "guys" not something that has been in my vicabulary latly. it's like all they guys at my school are not my cup of tea. i really want someone i can talk to sounds corny but really my best relationship was with kyle becuse i talked to him. we talked. and i miss that i miss being able to be atracttive to someone and have a great conversation. i don't know and i've always been told by my friends that i am beutiful but i really don't see it yeah i'm ok but like i guess it's maybe what guys say to me and that fact t hat people tell me i am beutiful doesn't sink in... well i hate writing alot because no one reads it and y woould u... lol... j/k talk tou ya'll later! ( i love that word)
Love YA!
ASHEE
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